Saturday, September 30, 2006

Off to Canada we go....


This is what Randie looked like the last time my parents and family had seen her face to face. When we moved here to England in January, she was still cruising, holding onto furniture wherever she went. Other than the internet seeing the much older, running Randie this is the face they kissed last, the little body they hugged goodbye while tears streaked their cheeks the day we caught our flight.

This is what Randie looked like the day Dave's parents seen her for the very first time when tears streaked their faces. Both of our families have missed so much us living so far apart in different countries. Dave's parents missed the little 2lb baby fighting for her life in the NICU, learning to feed, sit, crawl and cruise and my parents have missed those precious first independent steps and that running, laughing, talking little girl she has become. It is so difficult the situation being as it is but it is our only alternative right now and there is no way both families could win and share everyday with our precious miracle.


The time has come however that me and Randie will be "leavin on a jet plane!" and heading to Canada to meet her grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins again for what will seem like the first time. Air Canada will be taking us into Toronto International Airport at 4:00pm on Friday October 6th so if your in the area be sure to stop by and say hello. We are all very excited about this trip and everyone is so excited to see her of course. It will be very difficult for me traveling alone with Randie and all the baggage and everything else but it will be worthwhile on the other end. I really hope Randie enjoys the flight and sleeps a lot because 8 hours on a plane can seem like 20. Randie does not like to be in her carseat in the car for more than 20 minutes before she is crying "out... out!" so please send all your positive vibes my way on Friday because I can use all I can get :)

Not sure if I will get a chance to blog at all while in Canada but if not I will certainly tell you all how it went when we get back on October 20th. Time to head off to bed now, have had a busy day starting to get some things ready for the trip. Hope you are all having a brilliant weekend!
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Randie Days..

We have been taking Randie to different places on Sundays. A Randie day, we went to this farm park in Nottingham and it was pretty good. She loved it, she fed the animals and of course played with everything including "slide... slide!" about a hundred times but she has been having a good time. Last Sunday we went out to Lincolnshire to "Rand farm park" that one was pretty good as well but a lot more busy so when there is tons of screaming kids it is not as fun for the adults.. lol Randie still liked it though and played with most everything. She didn't seem as interested in the animals at this one but kept on with the "slide". Not even 10 minutes after we got there she ran into the park area and went into this little underground tunnel and came out the other side just full of mud. All over her trousers, arm and hands.. It was so bad I actually had to change her there and then..lol


Nothing beats watching Randie run on a trampoline.. It is the best thing ever. The way her legs move as she runs across the bouncy surface makes tears come to your eyes as you laugh your head off. Does she bounce on it? well she sort of tries but really does not get lift-off much but boy can she run on it and its like she is afraid to really bend her knees and she looks all stiff legged running across. We got some video of it in Scotland and I still laugh my head off when I see it. If there is a way to post some in here I will do at some point.


Anyway we have booked our flight to Canada for me and Randie. We will be leaving on October 6th and returning on October 20th. I will tell you more about that later. I am so stinkin tired know it is so hard to stay awake and Randie will be awake from her nap at any moment. I will be back with more info on Canada :) *cheers*

PS. Oh and Auntie Kim if you are reading this. We tried to call you and let you know about the date but you have that stupid privacy thing now on your phone and we cant get through *sigh* lol

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Friday, September 22, 2006

It's just sad...

You know I just can't seem to understand people sometimes. With all the technology today are people so incredibly bored with their lives that they have to make them up? Okay we have computers and can chat with people around the world without actually having to leave the house, without having to meet them face to face.

We can be anyone we want to be, any age we want to be, any size, shape, gender we want to be... but why does that mean we should stop being who we are? Are we not good enough just the way we are that we have to lie about the way we look, our jobs, our homes and family? This is the very question I have been asking myself lately because I am amazed at the audacity of some people.

As some of you may have already heard one of our fellow bloggers had her photos of her daughter stolen and posted on another blog and were pretending it was their daughter? Well this very same thing happened to another fellow blogger just recently. I will not say who it was in case they do not want it to be known yet but it is just a disgrace that you have to wonder who is using photos of your baby online somewhere claiming your child is theirs! What is even more disturbing is that I was the one to discover this. I sat their looking at a child's photo knowing it should not be there and having to tell the parents of this child what I discovered. I know if it was me I would be totally freaked out and angry at the same time. I cannot understand why someone would do this.


Are there lives that pathetic that the only thing to do is to make up an imaginary one? Or are they just sick and had some kind of traumatic experience in their own lives that they would prefer to live someone else's? But the real question is what is their to gain from it? They know the child/family is not their own so where is the satisfaction? Are they going to befriend some people and chat with them awhile to gain their trust and compassion and then use this later on for person gain. This happens all the time and some very kind hearted people get used and hurt in the process. I hate to think of how they feel when they find out it was all a scam and the people the felt they could trust had stabbed them in the back.


I totally understand that some of us would like to post about certain things in our lives but feel weird to do so thinking others will judge us when it is read and that is just natural. I mean for example, Today I totally lost my patience with Randie because at mealtime as usual she gives me a hard time and never wants to eat anything. I end up having to make her 5 different things to get some food into her stomach and today it just really set me off. I raised my voice and told her that she eats what was made or she is going down for her nap hungry. She had this little sad look on her face and after I said it I felt so guilty because its not like she really understands what I am talking about. Of course me being the softy that I am I could never put her to bed hungry so of course I made her something different to eat and as always she ate it. It just seemed to strike a nerve today and left me feeling like a horrible mommy.

This is something I would normally not write about thinking you all might think I am a bad mommy but you know, I am not a bad mommy.. I may not be the best mommy in the world but there is not a person out there that loves that little girl as much as I do. Who would die in an instant for her or starve to death so she could eat. With this wave of emotion that I have for her how can I be a bad mommy? I just get frustrated like all of us get from time to time but that does not make us bad.. It just makes us human.


When it all boils down to it, isn't it best to just be yourself? Not one of us is perfect and we would all like to change or hide something, but at least we are real. We are not hiding behind imaginary families, imaginary children. We are sometimes stressed, sometimes annoyed and sometimes just plain pissed off but we are human and the only life we have to lead is our own. Pretending does not make anything better.. If you be yourself I think people will respect you a lot more for your honesty on not being perfect than to fake a new life... Be the change you want to see in the world!

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Wordless Wednesday...

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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Blows the dust..

"Blows the dust off the blog". First of all thank-you to all of you that have not forgotten about us while I have been out of blogland and on some other planet. I have not really had much time to sit down and blog. Life has just been pretty hectic lately and the short amount of free time I have on the computer I always seem to be doing something else. Geez, I don't even get to my own message board these days but hopefully I will be able to catch up and get back on track.

Not a lot has happened lately to account for my absence other than my inlaws being away in Wales and me and Randie are home alone while Daddy is at work. Between taking care of Randie, reading her hundreds of books in a day. Taking her out somewhere for a walk, housework etc etc.. I have been keeping pretty busy. We have started taking her somewhere special on the weekends.. Like petting zoo's and farm parks and stuff like that so she can play to her hearts content. She really loves it too! Then again what kid wouldn't right? I have loads of pictures lately and you will see them when I get the chance to post some. A lot of the time blogger won't let me post them.. arg..


Anyway, we got the pics developed that we took in Scotland and there really was not that many good ones. I don't even know if I am going to scan them onto the computer. The entire time I hated taking photos with that camera. I am far to spoiled to have my digital such as it is to go back to film. Everytime I took a picture I was looking at the back of the camera to see the pic..lol Talk about bad habits. I might scan a few but the ones I took with the digital are probably enough anyway to post on her website.


It won't be too long before me and Randie head off to Canada to visit. It will probably be near the beginning of October but we don't have the date set yet. I am very excited to see my family back home and excited to have them see Randie. She has changed so drastically since they seen her last it will be fun to see their reaction, not to mention they miss her loads!! I am not however looking forward to the 7-8 hour flight with a small child on my own. I hate flying to begin with never mind having Randie there and all the baggage to go with her and only little old me carrying it all. I wish I could just click my heals together three times and be there already and not have to worry about the flight and customs and all the annoying things at an airport. It will all be worth it in the end though :)


I better run now and try and catch up on a couple blogs before I head to bed. I hope to be able to do some more blogging and hope to catch up with all of you on yours. Hope you are all having a great week!

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Wordless Wednesday...

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Monday, September 11, 2006

September 11

There are no words..

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Wordless Wednesday

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Cries in the night...

Hearing the cries in the middle of the night, having to get up and go in and comfort your child is so heartbreaking. Randie is sick again with another cold and the poor little sprog's nose is running like a faucet. She keeps spitting out her plug while she is sleeping probably because it is more difficult to breath or because of her coughing. We have gone through about twenty hankies today just wiping the poor girls nose and now of course it is pink and sore and she does not want you to touch it. This morning everytime she would sneeze she would look over at me "wipe it" and now she is like "Nooo". I sure hope this cold does not last as long as the last one. We have those sudafed plugin's to try and help her breath through the night but I don't know how much difference they make.

I took her to the park today thinking the fresh air would do her some good. It's just a small park with not a vast amount in it but it has the basics, slide, swings, climbers and a rocking horse thingy. It is just a small slide with only 3 steps but my girl was climbing up them all by herself today!! I mean she could have climbed them before I'm sure but being the neurotic mother that I am I would never let her.. I would lift her up to the slide. I am trying to chill out a bit and let her do things on her own. I mean geez she will never learn if I am panicking all the time..lol She climbed them over and over and over again.. "slide... steps.. slide.. steps" was what I heard the entire time we were there and of course the odd "swing, horse" etc. She gets more and more clever everyday too. I cannot believe all the things she is saying and how well she says them! She even says some 3 syllable words! My favourite things right now she is saying is "in a minute", "this a one (that's the one). My favourite though is "Okay". Its just the way she says it... it is sooo adorable and she says it all the time. I was going to upload some more pics than this but of course blogger will not let me..lol Anyway should go and visit a few blogs before bed.

It is my cousin Anita's Birthday today!
Hope you have a great birthday girl! *hugs*

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Sunday, September 03, 2006

Beta Blogger??

It seems like a lot of people are changing their blogs to this new beta blogger thing and it sucks :( I cannot post comments on any of these blogs.. I just got back from Scotland and it seems blogger has gone nuts. I have not read up on the new beta thing yet to even know what it is all about but if people cant post on them what is the point? I don't know.. Maybe it is a bug of some kind but just wish they were not changed..lol Geez guess I don't like change.. At least not this kind anyway! Okay I am done crying now!

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Saturday, September 02, 2006

We are back!

We are finally back from Scotland. We all had a great time and Randie had tons of fun. It rained everyday which was quite a damper (pun intended) but we had a couple days where it was fine during the day and rained in the evening so that gave us some time to get some things done that we were looking forward to. We got quite a bit of video of the vacation which is great once we transfer to DVD. I took a quite a few photos as well but most of them are on our other non-digital camera so I have to wait to get them developed..lol The digital camera that I use is really old and you can no longer get any new cards for them and the ones we have are really small so you don't get that many photos. Needless to say we needed to bring the other camera as well to get photos. Once they are developed I will scan some for you all to see :)


Of course I did get some digital photos that I have posted here today of my little peanut playing to her hearts content. We took her to a place called Heads of Ayr Farm park and boy she was excited. She was bouncing on trampolines, big pillows, playing in the sand, swings, slides and she fed the animals for the first time!! I cannot begin to type all the things she did there but needless to say she was exhausted by the time we left and fell asleep in the car. She went swimming in the indoor pool at Sundrum Castle Holiday Park where we were staying and she seemed to really enjoy that. We took her to another kid place called Pirate Petes. It is Scotlands biggest indoor adventure play area and she had lots of fun in there as well.


We went to Culzean Castle & Country Park and that was great. Such a huge expansion of space there we actually drove from the castle to the adventure play area with Randie. Lots of walking involved in that place. The castle was very interesting and the view spectacular. The castle was overlooking the Irish Sea and it was gorgeous. Very very windy but the scenery was breathtaking. I will post pictures later when I get them developed. I did not take any digital pics there but we took lots of video.

Randie's schedule has been demolished while on vacation. Hardly any naps at all and real short ones when she did nap, eating more junkfood which of course is acceptable on vacation..lol But now she screams when we try and put her in bed!! Now we are home I sure hope she cuts that out. She started to cry tonight again when we put her in bed but I hope she gets over it once her schedule goes back to normal. Come to think of it her schedule better go back to normal!! I need that time in the day when she has her naps or I will never get any computer time..lol Anyway I am super tired and still have a lot of unpacking to do but thought I would drop you all a note to let you know I was back. I will be doing some blog rounds before bed to try and catch up with you all :)

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